My name is Ryan. I'm a thirty-something father of two located in Sacramento, CA. I'm a former pastor and recovering evangelical. I blog at the intersections of fatherhood, faith, art and science - all things I find sacred. 

4 Podcasts to Help Deconstruct Your Faith

4 Podcasts to Help Deconstruct Your Faith

I'm definitely a podcast nerd. Actually, I'm really far behind on a lot of shows because I listen to so many and it's hard to keep up. That being said, I want to highlight a few podcasts for those of you out that that, like me, have been on a spiritual path that has led you to make some difficult decisions away from beliefs that you once held dear. You can read more about my personal experiences in other posts, but for those of you out there who might be beginning down a similar road -  these are for you. 

The Liturgists


The Liturgists are a global community working to subvert the barriers our society builds around religion, race, gender, ability, and sexuality. It’s really great folks recovering from spiritual estrangement, to those who are tired of seeing women, people of color, the disabled, or the LGBTQ community pushed to the back of the line. This space has been my refuge these past few years. There have been some episodes that have opened my heart so wide that I’ve literally had to pull the car over to just sit for a moment. Grateful for the people behind this project and I can’t recommend it enough if you are like me and looking to expand yourself and view of the world. I recommend supporting this project on Patreon and checking out their bonus content which includes weekly meditations. They also host events in cities around the country called “The Liturgist Gatherings.”

On Being


The groundbreaking Peabody Award-winning public radio show and podcast. Conversation about the big questions of meaning in 21st century lives and endeavors — spiritual inquiry, science, social healing, and the arts. What does it mean to be human? How do we want to live? And who will we be to each other? Each week a new discovery about the immensity of our lives. Hosted by Krista Tippett. I love the diversity of this podcast and the way they have the ability to connect us all.

The RobCast


Nearing 200 episodes, the RobCast is Rob Bell’s weekly podcast that explores the deep questions about life, meaning, and purpose. If you have been following me for any amount of time you know that I see Rob Bell as one of the most influential mentors of my life. He’s an incredible storyteller and has the ability to help us see thing through new lenses. The episodes are a blend of mini-sermons and guest interviews.

The Airing of Grief


An intense listen, The Airing of Grief is a podcast starting by musician Derek Webb. I've been listening to Derek's music and following his movements for over twenty years and feel a strong bond with him (although I'm not always sure what that means). Initially a series of raw conversations between Derek and his listeners about his latest record, the podcast has evolved into a larger conversation around the deconstruction of faith, spiritual trauma recovery, and complexities of walking away. 


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